Monday, May 9, 2016

Today I feel 32

The song may go "I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22"; however, today the song could very well be sung for a 32 year old. And I don't know about you, but I'm definitely feeling 32!

Years ago, I'm pretty sure the thought of turning 32 blew my mind and terrified me all at the same time. Today, I woke up a 32 year old - yes, it didn't hit me until today which is a day later - when my knees ached upon getting out of the bed, emotion hit me a little harder, and the run was not so easy. I've always loved an "even year" birthday. They always seem more fun and the year a slower pace. I attribute this liking to my parents giving us a "big" party with all our friends on the even years. Family parties were for the odd years. And this year, I take a deep breath and look forward to it.

I stand ready for the year of 32 because it is the gift that has been given to me. I stand ready because I finally feel comfortable with who I am - a 32 year old who can go to the grocery store with wet hair piled on top of her head and not a stitch of makeup. Ten years ago, I would have never dreamt of going out of the house without makeup. Many may say this is because I'm now married, but the trend started soon before we were even engaged. I stand ready because I stepped on the scale and saw a number today that didn't terrify me after a week or more of fast food living. I was at peace with my body- the curves, the dimples, the freckles, the frazzled hair that has graced my head for 32 years.

This year will be different. I am no longer the 22 year old wandering aimlessly contemplating God's will. I am no longer the 26 year old shamelessly pretending she has mad tennis skills to catch a date. That girl makes me shudder now. I am no longer the girl questioning God's will, for I know His will is here and now. This year will be different because I enter into a year where much growth is promised; a closer walk with my Lord is a guarantee; and a knowing the sun will not shine every day, but it will shine some!

Age is nothing to be afraid of but it is something to be thankful in - I am thankful for the days and the weeks and the years the Lord is giving me to live this FULL life.

Here's to 32.  "Everything will be alright."

Thank you for all those who wished me a wonderful birthday through cards, texts, and phone calls. They have meant the most and made me tear up a lot.. go figure :)